This is how I feel now.

Tonight I made a fool of myself. I guess I just needed this; after 6 months of storing, distracting myself from the world. Or even 3 years of pain that I wasn't willing to share, it just came out like an outburst of of nowhere. Everything was stored in my tiny heart. Maybe I just needed to be weak, to heal; all over again.

I will smile again, I promise.